The First Fright

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “First!.”

My first day of blogging was a “leap of faith.” Literally. I had no idea what I was doing. My beginning posts (poor ones, at that) explained that I was new and had no idea what I was doing. I didn’t know how to do this, or that.. it was terrifying.

In fact, the first time I got a reply from my first post, it frightened me. I thought…”You mean people actually read this!?” With that thought, I felt paralyzed as what to write next. “Whatever I write on this blog, anyone.. anyone in this whole world.. can read it!” That thought was mind numbing, at the very least.

Because I am such a private person, it was difficult to think of things to write about. Things to write about that felt safe to me. The whole “blog thing” felt like a “coming out party.” Coming out to the whole world that I exist and that I have things to say that “some” people might even find interesting.” But it also felt like I was putting myself out there as a vulnerable, self-conscience person that could be rejected and hurt in this blogosphere.

I am very thankful for those people that started following me and has continued following me and has given me so much positive support (Mark Bialczak, thank you!).

Because of this, when I come across a new blogger on WordPress, I try and follow them and give them positive support so they will grow and blossom as a blogger among the WordPress family blogworld. If they don’t know how to do something and I do know, I try to help them. (Because I remember how desperately I needed other people’s help).

All of us had a first time here and a first day here. We remember what that was like. I hope we all take the initiative to help the newbies overcome the “First Fright.”

Thank you for reading and wishing you the best in the new year ahead. ~PJ~

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40 thoughts on “The First Fright

  1. I understand that publishing a blog can be scary but ONLY because you and others have said so. This isn’t a challenge so please don’t take it as one. I’m sincerely curious about what is scary about it. All the years I taught writing most of my students were scared. Not of me, but of writing. What makes it scary? It’s never scared me so I honestly don’t get it — I AM terrified of speaking in public (but I do it). This is something I’d like to understand. πŸ™‚

    • I think for me (and I cannot speak for the others) is the vulnerability of it. It almost feels like you are standing in front of the world naked. It hard to explain, but this is the best way I can try and explain it. The fear of rejection mainly. The fear of being judged that your writing/posts stink.

      • That’s interesting. So it’s like the fear of public speaking only writing. I know I’m not typical — I’ve read more bad writing in my life than anyone can (I hope) imagine without having been an English teacher. The interesting thing is that I never worried if the writing was bad. It could always be fixed. It’s not like the words that come out of our mouths that we can’t take back or resay better or think about and amend.

        Also, I learned over the years that my writing matters most to me. That’s how I’ve come to see the novels I write and the rejection letters over the years. I still want everything I write to be as good as it can be, but ultimately what matters is writing it. πŸ™‚ Thanks for explaining it to me.

    • Thank you for reading! I have to admit that I am reluctant to push “Publish” on 99.9% of my posts. I always feel they are inadequate. But, I know that is the only way I can improve is to write, publish, and get feedback from others. Best wishes in your blogging and writing! πŸ™‚

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